Writing is one of those funny hobbies... because you love doing it (you kind of have to. It's not that rewarding) but you make every possible excuse not to.
I need to clean the house first
I need to do a little more research first
I should plot out the entire book first
It always seems to come up that there's something you ought to be doing
first. Either that or you're not in the mood, everything you write is coming out awful, you're sick, you have a headache, it's too noisy in here! When do the list of excuses end?
Well, they don't really. Because being a writer is about imagination so of course we can imagine all sorts of reasons
not to be doing that thing that we love to do... And there seems to be no reason for it!
I'm the worst at this. Right now I'm sitting here with this marvelous headache and two animals that just won't settle down. I've written all of 600 words all day and it's already 6pm. Day wasted it feels.
And if you're waiting for the part where I philosophically turn this all around you're going to be disappointed. Because I'm just complaining. It's another in a long line of imaginative things I do not to write. I think I enjoy complaining.
But, no, I just realized I hadn't updated my blog in quite a few days and I'm determined to keep up on at least
one project. It's a bad habit of mine to start something and then drop it. Constantly quoting that excuse of "I don't feel like it" or "I'm not inspired" or "I'd rather do this instead anyways..." So it's really good for me to push myself when it feels like the steam has turned off.
Plus I want to keep myself honest about my WIP. Maybe if I talk about it a little bit somewhere, I'll keep up on it. I've been playing with this idea for over a year now. Keep sort of starting it and then changing an idea here or there... and starting over. And all this time it had been meant to be the immortal empath's (Leona's) story.
After all... she was my character. I created her. Or she came to me and I started writing her... It's sometimes hard to tell. And I absolutely love her, probably because she's a lot like me in many ways. She's my alter ego so to speak.
But her counter part, Remi, has become the easiest to write. And 'they' usually say that if they're easier to write, they're probably meant to be the main character.
So I've rather accepted this turn around. It just seems interesting because I love Leona and I think she's a fascinating character... and she's mine... but there's something rather difficult in writing her. Or, more importantly, in trying to plan and write a novel around her. I guess in a way she's too complex and has too many factors that get introduced too early on, it feels forced.
Remi wasn't my character.
He was based off an interpretation of another character. And in that way at first he was rather forced as well. He was mostly there because I needed him to be there for the plot... But where was the fun in that?
Plus he felt too copied. Too much like the original. And as much as I don't mind the comparisons to the original or people to see the parallels in their stories, I wanted him to be mine. So I refused to write anything until I had him figured out.
I'm still not quite sure where it came from, what made me able to flip everything around and make him a background and personality that matched the original character but was almost entirely mine as well... But it happened. And I'm quite proud of it.
I just wish I could write more for my novel in a day than I could for my blog -sigh-
